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Labor??Day
2005-09-09 @ 10:47 a.m. Ok so at the LAST minute i decide to go to Miami for labor day weekend. Booked an overpriced but still reasonable flight and bounced right after my bosses wedding on Saturday night...i got Tuesday off of work so that was good. My man was sick which i felt bad about because i was shopping with my mom and my bro and then off to miami so i couldnt really tend to him. But i was able to spend one night with him and make him some breakfast in the morning before my busy weekend began. Backing up a bit... I hadn't heard from AX in a while after the flurry of emails and calls and reconnection of a friendship, suddenly there was nothing. He was supposed to call when he came up to NYC to pick up the rest of his sh*T from the apartment he abandoned. Alas nothing. Not surprising though. so i get to miami and wait a while then give him a ring...leave him a voicemail...nothing....i musta left about 3 messages as nice as i could be over the course of my stay in miami...still....nothing. my girls gave him the benefit of the doubt and told me to be easy on him as he is "mentally ill." I did not let this ruin my weekend as i knew not to have many expectations going into it. So back to AX, so I 've been told and know its true....i can be too nice and that i can't blame anyone but myself when i get hurt. But still I had a gift for AX for his bday that i planned on giving him so i sent it to him anyways today with a note "i planned on giving this to you when i saw you, but that didn't happen. oh well. happy birthday" inside was his old scarf and his favorite movie "Singing in the Rain" on DVD. Inclued was a card in which I drew a rollercoaster with a dude screaming and wrote: "Life is a rollercoaster you must learn to enjoy it.... tell me that wasn't nice of me!? ugh i disgust myself. the good thing is my man's bday was fantabulous!!! he had a great night and i was hustling like a madwoman to make it extra special. He was surprised with every turn of a gift and the night was so nice with no cell phones to disturb. He's the best...and little does he know that he is a gift to me everyday. This year brought a lot of obstacles for us and i think having done long distance for 2 years having him local was tough and created a bit of a learning curve. I think we are finally getting the swing of things though and its really really nice. I find that I don't talk about my man a whole lot, at least not the nice things, as i like to keep those private for my mind to wander in untainted. But I will try to be better about that. I'm blessed to have some great people in my life and truly fortunate for all the blessings in my life. "The happiness of a man in this life does not consist in the absence but in the mastery of his passions."
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